What more....

why do i feel like somehow i'm not doing as much as i can to help. my entire life i've always pushed people away and now that i've found good people to surround myself with i don't want to lose them. i want to be there but i fear i'm trying too hard to 'be there' and don't leave enough space or time. Am i gonna say the wrong things, am i gonna make it hurt more?

in my life, no one has ever said anything to make the things that happened to me in my life (things that were out of my control) any better so in a way i feel like......'what could i do to make someone else feel better about the situations out of their control?'

all day today i couldn't help but think about these things..........i really want to be there.